It wasn't until I lost my grandma that I realized how much I've neglected my grandparents. It suddenly dawned on me recently that grandma has left us more than a year ago, and since then my grandpa has been neglecting his health and kept his sorrow to himself.

Like typical asian families, my grandpa was a stubborn man who was strict with his children and never hugged or really showed his care. My grandma though, was the one who showed the soft side and communicated well with her children, and grandkids. After my grandma's death, the house that my grandpa stayed in was a little less homely. There was the silence that was not known when she was still around. And the spot where my grandma's bed used to occupy is now empty with a few chairs placed oddly in that area to fill up the space.

And my grandpa became very quiet since then, literally a man of few words. All he spoke of were the 4D numbers he wanted to bet on and some simple commands to the maid. Before taken ill, he enjoyed his daily walks around his neighbourhood and just sitting on the benches with the other old folks like himself. But now he just stares blankly at the TV everyday, or lie on his bed waiting for time to pass.

Now that he's seriously ill and hospitalised, I regretted not doing things that could have helped things when he was better. Like visiting more often, strike conversations with him, and taking a photo with him. Though my grandma's death did made me realise how bad a grandchild I was, but my visits were not increased significantly to make a difference.

He's so sick now that he couldn't even move, and sleep most of time. When he woke up, he could only open his eyes and made failed attempts to move his hands, but doc says he is able to see, hear and feel our touch. The only thing I can do is to go right in front of him, greet him cheerfully and ask how he is, or comment what a beautiful day it is. For the past few days there was the stare and nothing else. There were also saline and antibiotic drips, and his pained expression.

When I last visited him today, he was no longer on IV drips and could wake up when I called him. When he smiled, I almost cried. Such a great improvement! I hope he'll get better and conquer the disease very soon.

happy bday to me! ^^
it's a pathetic bday this year because i'm having an exam on the same day. coincidence coincidence!

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towering oreo


gigantic castle of cheese fries!

that's all for the time being. tata.
xoxo

my favourite pics from the sjab girls mar09 outing


kawaii kewei! *peace*


haha i don't know what we're doing but we all look either blur or confused

 
we took a lot of shots and this one came out the best: at least vera's not crying or looked glum!

 
alene's soo happy but vera's not amused at all!

 
we love camwhoring!


this is just cute, don't ask me why.. hee


gonna organise for april soon!